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Stolen from...somewhere.

Describe me in one word, just one single word. Leave it in my comments section. Then post this original message on your journal and see how many strange and interesting things people say about you.

I always think of things to put in memes like this at random times and then can never remember what they are. I don't know what's sadder - that my memory sucks or that I even think about memes at all.

The lovely _venus_ tagged me.

Post to your journal with 10 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself. Those who get tagged need to blog your own journal with those 10 weird things/habits/little known facts. Then chose 6 people to be tagged and list their LJ names. No tag backs...

1. My two big toes are different. My right toe is my dad's and my left toe is my mom's. I don't remember the first time I noticed but it always amuses me that obviously my DNA couldn't decide which was better and gave me one of each.

2. Sometimes I wish I was a musician because I FEEL music so deeply. The basis on which I judge most music is how much it moved me, not how good I think it is. Whenever I hear it there's a corner of my brain that just goes into dancer mode and moves to the beat and then I realize how much I miss dancing.

3. I miss a lot of the things I used to do when I was a kid: horseback riding, dancing, tennis, karate, skiing. I always just took them for granted because my parents always just gave them to me, sometimes without me even wanting them but being happy that they were there, which is why I think now that I just expect people to give me things, especially the things that I want.

4. I want to get married, but not until I'm at least 30. Different people have told me they figured I was one of those people who never wanted to get married, which is surprising because it's something I've always seen myself doing. At first I was kind of hurt when they said it because I don't think I've ever said anything to give reason to believe I don't believe in marriage, but I guess it never really came up in conversation, and maybe my not being interested in dating fueled that fire. I also believe that marriage can be what you make it, that people can have their own beliefs on what it is and should be, and that it is YOURS and no one else's. Also, I want a really big engagement ring.

5. I have no problem writing conversations and fights between characters, but when it comes to arguing with actual people I always freeze up and never know what I want to say until days later when I've replayed the conversation over in my mind. I don't know why this is; I don't know why I can't identify what I'm feeling when I'm feeling it and articulate that to the person I'm fighting with.

6. I don't think I believe in God, at least not the god of organized religion. My religion is balance. Bad things happen, good things happen, and neither one can go on for too long without the other coming in to either ease or increase the pain. You take what comes and always remember that it can always get worse, and that it will get better.

7. I am an incredibly jealous person and I don't like sharing.

8. I like having sex with girls but I could never date one. I don't know if that makes me bisexual or just a greedy bitch.

9. I loveloveLOVE when a movie or a show I see touches me so deeply that I can't stop thinking about it for months afterwards. Star Wars, Moulin Rouge, Buffy. I love STORIES, and sometimes I love the cliched ones most of all.

10. Usually the first thing I notice on a person after their face is whether they're wearing a wedding ring or not. I don't know WHY, but it's been that way for years.

Tagging whoever feels like sharing.

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Adam watched the S1 finale of VM last night with me. He was not impressed. I told him it all just goes downhill from there anyway.

Bandera called yesterday and asked if they could move my last day of training to Thursday instead of today. Apparently a bunch of people are out of town so I wouldn't have a trainer, and all the shifts are covered for the week anyway so they won't even need me til at least the weekend. I told her I have friends coming into town on Thursday and she said I could just start Monday then. Assuming I pass my last tests and waiting on the GM, that is. But that means I can hang with the boys and Chelsea a lot AND we can hopefully throw our Super Bowl party on Sunday.

I really need to start making money. It's been 5 months since I've worked full time. I like being a bum but I look forward to getting into a routine and getting that adrenaline surge from working once more. Plus I really want to go shopping.

I'm still gathering my thoughts, there are things that have been going down lately that I don't really know what to make of. I'm kind of just standing back and observing for now, trying to stay out of the line of fire even though I feel like I'm right in the middle and maybe even the cause for a bunch of them. I wish I could say I felt bad about it. I don't.

Getting laid would be REALLY nice.

I feel like there is something I have not said, but I can't for the life of me think of what it is. I'm going to the gym now, then to sit in Borders and study, then perhaps Adam and I are getting dinner and perhaps I am going to his show. Maybe I'll call Anna and see if she wants to grab a drink later.

OH HEY. Can someone hook me up with John Mayer's song Gravity? We watched House 3.02 the other night and it was playing at the end and now I can't get it out of my head. There's another gravity song that is in rotation with that one, by Embrace.

Maybe that's what's been weighing me down so much lately.