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Just made the most amazing soothing muscle massage oil with a recipe from the Aura Cacia website using juniper berry, peppermint, pine, and lemon in sweet almond oil. I feel relaxed and smell delicious! This aromatherapy stuff is fun! It's great to have a new hobby, especially one that has cures for ailments caused by my other new hobby, pole dancing.

Speaking of pole dancing, check out my sweet shoes!



I heart them so much. Combined with my booty shorts and thigh high leg warmers, I look pretty hot. Oh yeah. Already signed up for Level 2. I am in this for the long haul!

Waiting for Adam to get out of rehearsal so we can make chicken parm sandwiches for dinner and watch more Dexter S3.

Things to do over the next days/weeks: clean the house, organize the living room, go through my books and DVDs and make piles to send to goodwill or sell on eBay. The fall cleaning bug has hit! Hopefully I will get off my ass and actually do something about it, too.

I need to program TiVo with all the shows I want to watch this year. So far it's Dollhouse, Glee, Bones...umm, I know there's more. Remember when I used to have shows to watch every night of the week? TV sucks these days.

Adam sliced my finger open with a Batarang last night. What's a Batarang, you ask? One of those things that Batman throws at bad guys!!! Yes, Batman. He has a Batman costume, and it came with a utility belt, and the utility belt had Batarangs in it. He is such a nerd. And my finger is sliced to hell. Luckily, he made it up to me. ;D And it was an accident, so I wasn't mad or anything

I can't believe my birthday is in 2 weeks! I will be 26. (Yikes.) I have started practicing saying I am already 26 so that when it comes I won't be so freaked out. I'm getting old, man. Still not sure on plans yet, I'd like to do dinner and then a bar but the bar I want to go to, Harrigans aka our local dive bar, has open mic night, and guess who wants no part of that? Ugh. I need to figure something out asap and get on Facebook about it.

New hair!!




More behind ( the cut )

Sorry for the crap quality, I took them on my Blackberry. I am so in love with it! It needed to be cut so badly.

I spent 3 hours today playing DC Universe Vs. Mortal Kombat with Adam. It was awesome. I was actually pretty good, which is surprising because usually I really suck with video games. I mean, I can't even play MarioKart. Apparently I can kick lots of ass, though.

We also watched the first 3 episodes of Dexter S3 last night...I really like it! I've read complaints about the season as a whole, but I think it's off to a good start. Very different from the previous 2 seasons, but I think S1 and S2 were very different from each other so I'm okay with it. Can't wait to see where it goes, Jimmy Smits gives me the chills!

I stuffed myself with Chinese food. I need to knock it off with the junk food, pronto. I've been bad about the gym, and while pole dancing has been kicking my ass, it only happens once a week and is not enough to sustain me. I like being thin, I've worked really hard over the last 6 months and I will not throw it away now. I keep having to give myself that pep talk. Of course, after what I ate today, I never want to see food again, so hopefully it will prove unnecessary.

I am so obsessed with essential oils. I spent a ton of money today at Whole Foods buying the essentials (ha), along with sweet almond oil so I have a base to make massage oils. I'm using The Complete Guide to Essential Oils and Aromatherapy, plus the Aura Cacia website. It's all fascinating to me. I love scents. I developed an obsession with tea tree oil months ago, I have a feeling it won't take much to become addicted to the whole of aromatherapy. Now I just need to get a special box for all my oils.

I need to retrieve and fold my laundry, pack my bag for tomorrow, and hit the hay. Wednesday is my Sunday and I've been extra tired lately, I could use an extra hour or so of sleep. I've been getting frustrated with work lately, I need to take a deep breath, remember how lucky I am to have such a good job, and smile. The rest is just chicken and cornbread.

Jesus it's 5:30 in the morning and I should be in bed, but Battlestar Galactica ended tonight and I am wired and my brain hurts.

I loved it, I hated it. I was moved by it, I was left cold. There are so many thoughts swirling around in my head and I just - I have been here before, it seems, when every show ends I am never satisfied, because I am a person who does not do endings, I drag things out forever (see my personal life) and I refuse to let them die and BSG can't just BE OVER, it CAN'T, I am not done with it goddammit. The ending was moving and a copout, it was set up from the beginning and it made no frakking sense. All of them, these people that I love, that I have watched for 4 years now, that can't just be- IT.

I don't know. I don't know. There is never any satisfaction in endings, because NOTHING EVER ENDS, and to pretend otherwise is cheap and not real. But this IS the end, this IS IT, and...I don't know. I just don't know.

Oh show. Why are you over?

( OH HAI CAN WE TALK ABOUT HOW AWESOME BSG WAS LAST NIGHT? )

I need icons of my girl with guns. Yes.

Actually, it is. I got up early so I could get right to Best Buy when they opened at 10 (convenient that I live right down the street from one, no?) and got myself the OMG SO SPECIAL version of Battlestar Galactica Season 4.0, complete with Starbuck dogtags and a color book that fudges some of the facts but I still love it because it has pretty pictures of my favorite cast.

10 MORE DAYS ZOMG. I am going to stay spoiler free even if it kills me. This is too special to spoil. SRSLY. My friends and I are having a Catch the Frak Up! party of our own next week where we will watch Season 4 in its entirety to get ready for the premiere. We are going to do make cocktails and order Leona's and Beth is going to wear an eyepatch and don't think I won't break out my Starbuck dogtags. You wish you were as cool as us.

This whole LJ thing is really freaking me out. I backed up my journal using LJArchive, but NOTHING can happen to this place. I hate having to go to everyone's individual blogs. Seriously, if all the members got together, you know we could raise enough money to buy this thing and keep it alive. Let's get on it, huh? I HEART MY LJ. Please don't take it away from me.

Oh, and hopefully I got my TiVo fixed. Apparently now that TV went digital, you can only record using one tuner? Is everyone else having to deal with this? SUCKS. Oh well. I don't think anything is on at the same time. Wait, what time will Friday Night Lights and Dollhouse be on? That could be a problem. Frak.

Off to make sure my TiVo IS actually fixed, then shower and dress for work. UGH. Adam and I are going out tonight because it is my only night off and don't think I'm not going to get good and drunk. I have earned it. Please let me make $100 tonight. PLEASE.

My cast is so pretty!

So my 14 hour days turned out to be 16 hour days, and I still have a cold.

BUT I did get to see my friends last night when I should have gone home and to bed and I only had half a beer and drove a very drunk Adam and Ted home feeling like a soccer mom the whole way because they were in the backseat punching each other. Boys are weird. And then there was a game of dirty Simon Says which was fun! And too little sleep, but not because of *that* kind of fun...because clearly my body still hates me. I go on Yaz next week. Woo!

I have one more five hour shift tomorrow, and then two glorious days off. I need a break. I am drained.

I am watching Planet Earth and OMG baby bears are the cutest things EVER! I want! Maybe I can teach the cats to be as cute as baby bears. Wish me luck.

One day I will make a post of substance that encompasses the last, oh, two months. Oops.

One thing to say about BSG 4x03 "The Ties That Bind":

ROAD TRIP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

( Best. Ever. )

One of the biggest reasons I love Battlestar Galactica?

They LOVE to punch people in the face.

Also? Without fail, it has the uncanny ability to rip my heart out and stomp all over it and leave me a raging emotional mess, begging to pick up my heart, put it back in my chest, and do the whole damn thing over and over again. IT IS THAT GOOD.

There's more on my mind, a lot more, but I don't want to think about it, so instead I watch face punching and imagine my scenarios with face punching and it makes me feel better.

I think BSG is the show Joss Whedon always thought he was writing. He wasn't. He got close at times, but more often he dropped the ball. BSG has a whole lotta balls in the air. I don't think they're going to drop them.

"There's a trick to being human. You have to think only about yourself."

I need to remember that sometimes. My survival instinct is flawed.

I am sad to see Gilmore Girls go. Though it went through some rough patches, it never failed to make me laugh and really remember why I wanted to be a writer in the first place. I loved the finale, though I would have equally loved another season with Rory out of the picture (she's not my favorite by any means). Anyway, farewell, GG. It was a good run.

Now I am going to pet kittens.

I have not been outside all day.

The snow that is falling right now looks more like volcano ash. It is big and fat and lazy on the breeze.

edit: I just went outside to throw out the garbage, and the snow seems to be hanging suspended in the air before it starts moving back up into the sky. Yes, the snow is going the opposite way it normally does. And there's no wind to speak of. Weird. (I am just obsessed with snow lately, aren't I? What gives?)

My head is so full of food and wine I think it might explode.

TEAM LOGAN. (I'm just practicing.)

I miss Tori. I haven't been spending as much time with her as usual. Maybe that's why I feel weird.

Adam and I have started watching Heroes. We're only 1 and a half episodes in (we fell asleep halfway through 1.02) but already I am loving it. I don't want to kill JessMilo Ventimiglia, which a strange new feeling. Even though he did beat out my friend Louis for the part of Rocky's son in Rocky Balboa. It has sucked me right in, I'm in for the ride with this one. Friday Night Lights is next, after we get caught up on House S3, though Adam has already informed me he wants no part in FNL because he is lame.

I really need TiVo.

Sometims I really need to be an adult about things. I think this is one of those times. (<-- not about TEAM LOGAN. which must be in caps. about life stuff concerning other people and other feelings.)


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