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Adam and I just talked. I feel better and worse. It's hard, standing in the wreckage. It's hard to pick through, we are both at fault here and I really hope that we can find that middle ground.

Seeing him, actually seeing how this has torn him apart, has really humbled me. I hurt him too. I am so vindictive sometimes and I just do things to hurt him and I really need to stop. We both have work to do.

Tonight is the last night of this distraction. Tomorrow it's back to the real world.

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Yeah, me too... I realized on the phone with Matt last night that I fuck with him just as much as he fucks with me at this point.

I don't know what the answer is. Obviously. But there must be an answer, there's no way people are meant to go through this much together and then never see each other again. I have to believe that can't be right.

God, we're totally the same person.