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It's weird being home with no cats.

They went to PAWS today, the big no-kill shelter here in Chicago. It was a hard decision, but it's been a long time coming. I've been more patient than most people would be, and it's just at the point now where I can't do it anymore. I'm not home enough to have animals, it isn't fair to them and it isn't fair to me. I wish I had known that when I first thought about getting a kitten. Not that I would trade the time we had for anything, but this part has been really hard.

I miss them, and I wish I didn't have to make that choice, I wish we could all just live in peace together, but we couldn't, and I couldn't continue to live with training pads covering my couch and a tarp over my carpet in the back room. I hope they go to great homes and have wonderful lives filled with lots of love. I wish I could have given that to them. I couldn't, but I hope what I have given them is the chance to find that. I feel blessed for the time that we did have together. I miss them a lot.

This has been a pretty trying week. I am sending all my positive energy out to the cats and their new future homes and families, whoever they may be. I hope they find each other soon.

I hope I made the right decision. No. I know I made the right decision. I hope they're okay.

observations

• 09:22 3 days till Florida, 14 million things to do before then. I'd like to skip the chores and be on vacation now, yes. #
• 12:29 Pole song: Videophone by Beyonce. Hothothot with my bombshell dress. #
• 12:31 Danced to the song Jessica Rabbit sings. Another lifelong dream fulfilled. Thank you, pole dancing, you make dreams come true. #
• 22:32 Played a game in pole today: stay on the pole in the air for one song. Longest 3 minutes of my life. Can't feel my legs. Love it. #

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