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Adam and I just talked. I feel better and worse. It's hard, standing in the wreckage. It's hard to pick through, we are both at fault here and I really hope that we can find that middle ground.

Seeing him, actually seeing how this has torn him apart, has really humbled me. I hurt him too. I am so vindictive sometimes and I just do things to hurt him and I really need to stop. We both have work to do.

Tonight is the last night of this distraction. Tomorrow it's back to the real world.